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I love Jason Gray , and more specifically, I love this song of his. I love the simplicity of the lyrics - "Tell me, lest I forget, who I am to you [God]". I've listened to this song countless time over the past week or so because, frankly, I've forgotten who I am.
I look in the mirror, and I don't recognize myself. I've never looked like this before, so it's foreign to me - not only the face staring back, but the body attached to it. It's true, I look different, but inside there somewhere is the same person I was a year ago. Honestly, I'm not altogether sure I know who that person was either, but my God does.
He not only knows who I am, he loves who I am. He may not always love what I do-- for instance, he doesn't love that I haven't taken care of my body. In Romans 12:1, I'm told to offer my body as a living sacrifice and that the sacrifice be holy and pleasing, as a spiritual act of worship. Overfeeding my body and thus subjecting it to myriad malfunctions a body can have due to carrying too much weight around doesn't sound holy and pleasing to me. Neither is it a sacrifice. I've failed in this area.
However, the glory of my life comes straight from the mercy of my God. He says to me - It's okay, remember who you are? You're mine, and I love you.
As I peel back the layers of my life, both literally and physically I am better able to grasp the concept of who I am. I'm able to see more clearly that I'm not what I do; I'm more than that. I'm more than the things I do. I am more than what I eat, wear or own. I am me and I have a purpose with a place not only in the heart of God, but in the lives of everyone I come in contact with. I desperately want to make my time here on this planet mean something. In order to do that, I have to remember who I am.
((hugs)) I know it can be so hard when we feel like we have lost ourselves, but you are right, God does know us and loves us just as we are, all the time. If only we could always see ourselves as He does. :)
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